Until you've experienced the girly tag on e621, spent 80hrs in a trap thread on 4chan, and read shit-tons of doujin with the crossdressing tag, you'll never completely comprehend what makes a dick feminine or why. You must first confuse your penis and then come full circle out of your confusion to gain that level of enlightenment. It is a journey one cannot have companions on or otherwise distract themselves from midway through. You must commit in ways that neither marriage or a video game could ever demand of you. Then, and only then, shall you be sufficiently enlightened that you will understand what a feminine dick is and why it is not gay.