Re: Member Announcements Thread
I don't know how to go about this without setting some people off. To them I advise they ignore this. This only pertains to those who have the patience to understand me.
First off, let me introduce you to how my mind works. How I conditioned it to work for well over 15 or so years. At my core, I am afraid of being judged directly. And I grew to know that the Internet will judge you no matter what you do. So I made up an "emotional planet" of sorts. I make up personas to better reflect myself without the danger of being directly influenced. It sometimes works. Sometimes it does not, but at least my direct self is safe.
One such "continent" is Lila. She is a small, shy little Robot that tries her best, and panics when something small happens. As such, I have come to shine my real problems through in such a way that it fits that description. Even if it is true, I tend to spell out all of my problems in mind. The drama in the Hate and Rep thread is unfortunately true. I have come toward tough times in my personal life. And Lila is a persona that would not allow me to suppress it.
Okay, now that I divulged my "planet" to you guys, and take it as you will, ridiculous or not, I have plans to no longer use Lila here. As it has proven to be a problem. To those who pla with me and ease my strains, my friends, in a few months or sooner, Lila will have a Wisdom Reset and forget to read the proper files, leaving this universe for another without any recollection of anyone here.
Again, this may sound ridiculous but I have in mind a more mature persona to use that really doesn't get into all that drama. She has barriers from problems I could keep from divulging to this forum. This means less what people call "attention-seeking" and moreso like... aloofness. Ryka is much more mellow than Lila.
To those that care and not think of me as some weirdo, thanks.
