Re: Confessions
Reading this and figured I might as well..
I'm sorta of a closet pervert. I don't think anybody really knows I am, but the fact I don't want to be is what bugs me so much. Sex is more than just what a lot of the media portrays it these days. The media says 'it's ok to do it, it's only for fun.' and 'as long as you got a condom you should be fine.' It's more than that, sex is the physical expression of love.
Problem is, I used to have a girlfriend, and after we went out for a year and a half I proposed to her. She accepted... then two weeks later dumped me. The thing was I was so damn excited about her accepting I started to write my vows, record all her favorite songs for the wedding. I didn't want to screw this up. Apparently I didn't have to worry about me screwing up because in the end she just told me it was over.
Thing is, she never told me why. I'm still a virgin, and... well I just miss being close to somebody. We would hug and kiss, (and yes we would even do sexual teasing and such. Pretty much everything BUT the actual 'real deal.')
We had promised we would get married first before we would do that. I honestly didn't care about sex the way I felt about her. I could live without it, as long as I was with her I was happy. But when she left, I pretty much had a mental breakdown and now I'm this creepy perverted thing. Ugh.. had to get that out.
Oh yeah, and that's why alot of porn is disgusting to me. They just say "fuck" over and over and over again. You can tell there is no connection between the two people, or any love or intimacy. It's just stupid. Games are games though. They aren't real, so it doesn't bother me.
I personally have no quarrel with most women unless they're the aforementioned harpoon-worthy ones, or super anorexic-looking. Basically, if their ribs are easier to see than their boobs, its a bad thing.
Also, unlike the vast majority of guys in my area, I'm not a fan of overly sized breasts. Sure its nice to see an impressive rack every now and again, but they just look awkward to me when you start going past a D. >_>Go away.
And amen to that. Boobs are good... but if I can't hold them in my hand or if I have to use both hands just to grab one... that's a big turnoff. Probably causes horrible back problems for the woman too.
Getting done reading everybody's fetishes, I actually feel a bit better now. I thought I was a sicko for liking the tentacle stuff, but I like it because it well.. pleases the woman in all the places possible. So if the chick is crying or something it's still a turnoff. A bit of bondage is my thing... but no chains or whips. Something about being seduced by a beautiful girl just makes it real hot.
